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Jan. 16th, 2007 | 04:00 am
im so happy and so sad at the same time and i hate the contrast its driving me insane
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Dec. 28th, 2006 | 11:46 pm
mann i dunno ive been pretty good lately
things are great with me and josh
i think a lot about the rape shit and i cry about it a lot but i try to suppress it and get over it
im proud of myself for stupid reasons but im still proud
i dunnow hat else to say
things are great with me and josh
i think a lot about the rape shit and i cry about it a lot but i try to suppress it and get over it
im proud of myself for stupid reasons but im still proud
i dunnow hat else to say
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Sep. 9th, 2006 | 09:45 am
so i basically hate all my classes, i cant talk cuzz i dont trust anyone in my classes and i dont feel comfortable with them, so i cant be myself. the only time im happy in school is wen i see josh, which is rarely. last nite was good, i had A LOT of fun and im happy :D
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Aug. 30th, 2006 | 12:58 am
wayy too much drama for my liking :-/ i just wanna settle all of this soo i dont have to be bothered with it. i hate wen things are left unsettled. this is sorta my fault but i dont think its fair that i always get all the blame for errything :-/
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Aug. 3rd, 2006 | 05:02 am
i dunno why i get like this, i dont have a chance, duhh, get over it before u get hurt
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Jun. 29th, 2006 | 12:24 am
i am in a good mood because
--rubinos sleepin over
--i got my boyy back <3333
--everything is taken care of
--someone called me beautiful yesterday
--i knoww people care about me
i am in a bad mood because
-- someone just called me a slut
--and told me to go die
--rubinos sleepin over
--i got my boyy back <3333
--everything is taken care of
--someone called me beautiful yesterday
--i knoww people care about me
i am in a bad mood because
-- someone just called me a slut
--and told me to go die
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Jun. 26th, 2006 | 10:27 pm
ick ick ick
worst night of my life
:-(
worst night of my life
:-(
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Jun. 26th, 2006 | 05:54 am
i hate people so much
so much
so much
i wish i would just die
sometimes
cuzz i cant really take this shiit anymore
boyys are assholes
girls are biitches
and im ugly
i hate this
so much
so much
i wish i would just die
sometimes
cuzz i cant really take this shiit anymore
boyys are assholes
girls are biitches
and im ugly
i hate this
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Jun. 26th, 2006 | 05:51 am
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Jun. 25th, 2006 | 02:00 pm
Chillin wit Josh the other dayy was madd wierd. He barely paid attention to me. Its so hard when you're used to having someone there for you and all of a sudden they arent anymore. He doesnt call me anymore. My number wasnt even in his phone.Goodbye Love This is soo damn hard. Anyways, that made me cry a lil bit. I cant think of him without crying or being on the verge of tears. And I cant stop thinking about him which makes it so much harder. How is it that easyy to forget about me? I wish I could be like him, and just find a better looking person and start liking them instead. My first heartbreak and now i understand they shiit they talk about in songs and on tv. You never really knwo the feelin until you've lived it I think the hardest part for me is knowing that it was my fault. No, the hardest part is knowing ill never find a guyy like him Ughh i wish this wasnt so hard cuzzz im sick of crying and im sick of feelin like shiit everyday.
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Jun. 23rd, 2006 | 10:31 pm
cuzz of hanging out wit josh
its definitely not the same
i almsot cried a feww times
if it wasnt for my good frend maryjane
and my best friend michelle lol
i dont think i woulda made it through the dayy
im so grateful for both of them lol
too badd things with josh couldnt be better
:-(
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Jun. 23rd, 2006 | 10:30 pm
cuzz of hanging out wit josh
its definitely not the same
i almsot cried a feww times
if it wasnt for my good frend maryjane
and my best friend michelle lol
i dont think i woulda made it through the dayy
im so grateful for both of them lol
too badd things with josh couldnt be better
:-(
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Jun. 21st, 2006 | 12:15 am
uggh ive been pretty sadd lately
i dunno wat to do anymore
i cant even make my own decisions
( surveyy fun )
i dunno wat to do anymore
i cant even make my own decisions
( surveyy fun )
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Jun. 18th, 2006 | 08:11 pm
Dear Josh,
The first boy I ever loved
The best friend I ever had
The first boy I cared about
I admit, you got me bad
The first time I felt this pain
My very first heart break
The first time I cried like this
Could be my first mistake
The first time I ever felt like this
This love, this ache, this pain
The first time I hurt like this
You're driving me insane
The first time I've tried all day
To get you out my head
Trying to forget your stupid smile
The heartfelt things you said
The first time I sat by my phone
Just waiting for your call
Simply just to hear your voice
Say anything at all
The first boy who, in your arms
Everything felt so right
You're the boy I always dreamed about
When I fell asleep at night
I never missed anyone
As much as I miss you
This is the first time I've had to say goodbye
And hope you'd miss me too
The best friend I ever had
The first boy I cared about
I admit, you got me bad
The first time I felt this pain
My very first heart break
The first time I cried like this
Could be my first mistake
The first time I ever felt like this
This love, this ache, this pain
The first time I hurt like this
You're driving me insane
The first time I've tried all day
To get you out my head
Trying to forget your stupid smile
The heartfelt things you said
The first time I sat by my phone
Just waiting for your call
Simply just to hear your voice
Say anything at all
The first boy who, in your arms
Everything felt so right
You're the boy I always dreamed about
When I fell asleep at night
I never missed anyone
As much as I miss you
This is the first time I've had to say goodbye
And hope you'd miss me too
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Jun. 16th, 2006 | 06:55 pm
im really sad lately
i hate that i care about both of them so much
and neither of them care about me much at all
i guess im not worth it
who would like my ugly ass anyways right?
i hate that i care about both of them so much
and neither of them care about me much at all
i guess im not worth it
who would like my ugly ass anyways right?
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Jun. 15th, 2006 | 09:26 pm
uggh i talked to josh today
and he didnt seem to care at all
like always
and i was cryin on the phone to him
and he showed no emotion
and i texted him after i hung up on him cuzz i was cryin so much
and he didnt write back
thanks soo much mann
you really broke my heart
and he didnt seem to care at all
like always
and i was cryin on the phone to him
and he showed no emotion
and i texted him after i hung up on him cuzz i was cryin so much
and he didnt write back
thanks soo much mann
you really broke my heart
